my maiden love letter

My first love letter for my first love.....!!!

The very first time i saw you and when the rhythm of my heart sled down,

i said to myself....

this is not love....!!

when enquired about you, when you spoke so kindly and responded positively,

i once again said to myself

this is not love... this is not love....!!

later on,
when you became my closet friend caring, supporting, guiding and backing for anything and everything

i still said 

this is not love... this is not love....!!

but now, 

when my eyes are full of tears....
while you are departing from me for ever... 

how can i say this is NOT love..... ???

Am i falling in love with this city...???

umm... where do i start from..??
what do i write... ?? donno. But as i keep writing, i suspect it's all abt the comparison.. yeah.. comparison of all the cities i have been to and i have lived in ... i may not agree with me... umm.. not disagreeing too....
now if you ask me the reason for liking this city, there isn't anything straight....
as you read on.. you shd be able to find the answer.....

•  i dont have to stride to get a bus
• i dont need to spend too much on my traveling coz it takes only 30 mins to reach a distance which can be reached in 30 mins...
• i dont need to go to only few places always to freak out..
• i enjoy reaching home under moon light listening to my fav songs with out any fear of mugging
• i dont have to fear of dogs to walk in early hours
• i no more have night mares abt traffic jams..
• i dont have to pay 1 1/2 or 2 1/2 times the basic fare for auto charges...
• i dont have to travel on the congested roads built for 'X' lacs of people and occupied by '20X' of people...
• i get an opportunity to sit the banks of ocean which solaces me.... loosens ...gives immense pleasure and happiness...
• i am not afraid of a city/local bus hitting from hind end while i ride my bike..
• i no more see rulers blaming the migrants for overcrowding of the streets and roads....
• i dont need to move with people who always feel it isn't their place though staying for years..
• i dont need to worry about paying an year advance to rent a house....
• i am no more staying hours at the traffic signals...
• i sincerely appreciate the bus conductor who promptly returns my money even if it is 50ps....
• i am not frightened to sit with my girl friend in a park on V-day...
• i hardly see any movements for separatism disrupting the life....
• i do not remember an incident of communal roits....
• i dont see women sandwiched in the city buses....
• i am taking the pleasure of most friendly people..
• i am not liking to leave this city.... i am not liking to dislodge... i am not willing to .... i am not willing to....

Why is it..why is it.......and why is it??
Am i falling in love with this city....???